There is, yet again, a new man in my life. He really blows all the others out of the water. His name is Kyle....I hear he has a deviantart but I haven't really been looking for it. I guess I'll do that after my journal. So Kyle and I have not been dating that long but I am mad for him. Kinda sad and pathetic really. I am dangerously flirting with the line of obsession :-P The idea of me fucking up our relationship keeps me awake at night. I will be absolutely crushed if Kyle and I ever end it. The way he makes me feel is amazing. Like, he told me (before I met him) that when I was with him I would feel relaxed. People! He was not exaggerating! I'm serious! When I am with him it is like all my problems melt away. There is no stress, no pressure, no anything except acceeptance, comfort, and relaxation. Even when something does come crashing in to ruin the day he just looks me in the eyes and tells me to relax...I actually do! Sometimes I wonder if he's really talking to me the person and not my mind. It's really neat.

So Kyle is a druggie. Not like bad drugs, but psychedelic drugs. Like....he smokes 24/7. He's slowly pulling all his psychedelic drugs into me giving me new thoughts, ideas, and a more knowledgable outlook on life. So far I have only tried DXM but I hear more are to come. I am really excited about this whole mind expansion thing...it's like an enlightening rollercoaster for my mind. If you have never done stuff like this it is hard to imagine and difficult to understand and that makes it a little scary (especially with the govornment putting stupid thoughts into your head), but I promise you, when used responsibly and with the knowledge of what you're putting into you're body and what it's going to do, it is perfectly safe.